Okay, let's drop everything for a moment.

I hate to ask this, because it's been a long time and I don't know how the atmosphere around here has changed, but I'd like to ask anyone reading this to please take a step back for a moment. Drop character, drop story, drop everything. Just for this blog entry.

I feel the need to write a formal thanks and goodbye to you all. I'm sure you've noticed it's been ages since I've posted. Honestly, I haven't known what to post. I've somewhat fallen out of the Slendermythos fandom in the last few months, regrettably. I haven't kept up with vlogs. I certainly haven't kept up with blogs, tangled mess that they've become. I certainly didn't help much with the tangling when I stepped in with this mess of a blog.

My first mistake with Harmonic Paradox was when I said, you know what, I'm gonna get involved with the Slenderblog community! That's when things got confusing. This began as my real blog for my real life, and quickly became something fake when I entered the mindset of "Slenderblogs are cool, I want one too!" There was all that stuff with the chaos/order weirdness. I had a whole thing planned out! The idea was that I was being possessed by an overeager force trying to create order, and it was really cool in my head. But, obviously, that didn't pan out. It got tangled up with the rest of everything.

My second mistake was in using my real self. I got really involved with everything using my usual self, Holly. That was just me. As you can imagine, it got really confusing separating my real identity from the identity I used on this blog. Once Twitter came into the equation, I fell off the wagon entirely. I'm very sorry for that.

Basically, I'm sorry for being a confusing moron. I had a TON of fun for a while here, with Sammie and Storm and everyone! Getting into the Slendermythos fandom was a weird and wild ride for me. Hanging around on Unfiction, speculating about the next episode of whatever or where you crazy people would take the stories you weaved... And of course, the not sleeping. There was no sleep for that time period. It was a great time, and I don't regret a thing. I wish I could've kept it up longer.

Thank you for a great time, Slenderblog community!

Uh, hi there.

Howdy, folks. It's me, Holly, in case anyone's forgotten.

Um... Yeahhh. It's been a really long time since I've updated, huh? I really don't know how to go about apologizing for missing so much... OTL How have you been, all of you? No casualties? Everyone staying sane? I've missed you guys terribly. ;__; I can't promise to be back full-time like I once was, but I'll try to stay updated.

As for my own issues, well... I think taking a break from all this has been good for me. Whatever was going on with me has calmed down, and that's about as much thinking about it as I'm willing to do. Don't worry about me, everyone! I'm all good!

So, uh... I'm really sorry for being away for so long. It's nice to be back!

Moving on.

Yeah, forget it. Forget that last post and the one before it. I've decided to move on and forget about the whole thing; it's just not worth stressing over. I didn't want to just delete those posts because that would be a jerk move and it would make you guys worry about me more.

Please, don't worry about me.

I can handle whatever's going on with my head on my own. I know it sound cliché, but it's true. I was making a huge deal out of something that probably was just nothing.

I've been under a lot of stress lately with school and other things. I don't blog about that sort of thing anymore, since after getting involved with you guys... It all just seems too trite and unimportant to trouble anyone with. I might start doing regular blogging again- It's probably better for me than I realize.

So yeah, it was nothing. The obsession with Order, the codes- I'm going to leave it be. Nothing good can come of me continuing to dwell on this. Down that road lies madness, quite literally.

Thanks for your help and support, you guys. I'll be there to support you all as well, I can promise you that. I'm keeping safe and keeping sane, so y'all better do the same, okay?

Do not fret.

Epw avejv eodcehm vvawaz- Nhf, rocqjv, ggszx zz bv?
Wlr szgpnmlz zmlmw kii hsaschtg, cxo cwa hzpkn'g vqe.
Zb'y o xdre, esqf wffhk; wp'l h qrnw sx rlbtt
iip oy xttx jbuh t emc.

I don't know what I'm doing

Okay, this isn't going to make any sense- I'm sorry about that, really, it hurts me more than it hurts you to say all this. It's stupid, it's crazy, it's I don't even know anymore, I'm only half-coherent, but here goes. 

I can't do anything anymore. I can't draw, I can't write, I can barely leave my house without having a, I don't know, a fit. My head hurts, I feel nauseous, everything I see feels strange and alien and wrong. It's like looking through a funhouse mirror, except I know for sure that nothing has changed. I want to fix it- I want to fix everything. It's been driving me insane, looking around and only seeing WRONG. What the hell is wrong with me? Is it OCD? Am I actually going insane? 

I have what you might call a crippling fear of insanity. Going crazy, being unable to understand or be understood, the very idea of it makes me want to curl up and cry. It has to be the worst fate in the world. I can't even take jokes about mentally disturbed people well- It hits too close to home. Is this relevant? I don't know, what the hell.

But here's the deal- You've probably noticed that I've been going out of my way to organize things. I cleaned my room top to bottom for no reason. It wasn't in the photos, but I freaking OVERHAULED MY BOOKSHELVES. I have a total of four bookshelves in my room, stuffed with books. They were a complete mess until one day I looked at them and I was suddenly horrified by how messy it was. So I organized them. All of them. It wasn't even a choice- I absolutely positively HAD to do it. Looking at it made me feel sick.

Here's the dumb part though- You ready? See the above paragraphs? How many words are crossed out and underlined? Yeah, I've been doing that for a while, haven't I. Capitalizing and underlining the word "Order." Striking out, you know, the opposite of that. I wasn't unconscious or doing it against my will. I knew perfectly well I was doing it, but it, I don't know, it seemed logical at the time. It was just natural to do it- Like any other rule of grammar. I didn't mention it, no one mentioned it. Move along folks, it's someone else's problem! Let's just ignore it! It doesn't make a difference anyway. At least it wasn't binary, right?

Look, I've rewritten and deleted this same entry five times. It makes no sense, it's crazy, it makes me sick looking at this mess of chaotic ideas and words and it's all meaningless to me, I can't even read what I've written, I'm just going to submit this and hope maybe someone knows what's wrong with me

i woke up at two in the morning today. i was upstairs, cleaning and organizing everything. my sister's room and my mom's office had also been organized. i'm scared.

I'm okay

Okay, I apologize profusely for the sudden radio silence for the past several days... I was suddenly hit with a horrible awful cold that left me pretty much bedridden for four days. ;_; I couldn't go to school or anything, so I imagine the buildup of homework is going to be enough to kill me.

But enough about that- I'm better now, going to school tomorrow, and probably going to be miserable. How has everyone been doing? Have I missed anything important? Please please do tell me if I've missed out on something I should've been present for.

At the Base of the Holly Tree

Now, I know what you are all thinking at this moment.

"Man, what's with all these riddles and Slenderblog nonsense? Holly should go back to whining about her personal life and generally being useless!"

Spot-on, right? Well, be disgruntled no more, my beloved reader! For once again, Harmonic Paradox shall be home to the many tales of woe that befall a teenage girl! Stormecho, Sammie, and I have started a separate blog for organizing and analysing  Slenderbloggy things, because apparently they think I'm not doing a terrible job with imposing _Order_ on things. So go follow this blog for all your codespeak needs.

http://anchoredroots.blogspot.com/

Mistress Mary, quite contrary,
how does your garden grow?
With silver bells and cockle shells
and marigolds all in a row.

quite contrary

"Yes. You have found it."

Such is the comment from Storm I found when I got home from school. So simple a statement. I suppose she's responding to my realization that the labels on her posts categorize her entries as truths (the codespeak) and lies (the normal writing.) So this is what Storm was telling us- But what does it mean? 

The most probable of my theories is that Storm is labeling her posts as such to further obscure herself from whatever it is she's hiding from. It doesn't make a lot of sense immediately of course, since it doesn't actually hide anything. Of course, neither does hiding your words in binary or base-64 even though it's a simple matter to decode it, yet we see that constantly. If you think about it, it doesn't make sense. It's illogical. Therefore, we must be talking about a force that doesn't adhere to human logic. 

Then the question now is: What is Storm hiding from? What could drive her to obscure her words in a maze of meanings and codes? That's what I want to find out.

The obvious conclusion, considering our interests, would be that our dear friend Mr. Tall Dark and Tentacled got to her. However, I'm not willing to completely believe that is the case. Not yet, anyway. Honestly, at this point, I don't know what I believe in. The idea of Slenderman actually existing hasn't actually sunk in. I guess I haven't registered it as anything other than a game, even though I'm dealing with something real right now. Could he really be out there, physically and literally, hunting down Storm and Darby and others? It still seems like such a strange idea to me. 

I'm starting to get a headache, and I'm not feeling well again today. I'd like to take a nap, but I know if I keep taking naps in the middle of the day, my sleep cycle will be completely wrecked. Consciousness it is, then. 

laurel leaves (Stormecho Analysis Part 2) EDIT-1

Okay, guys. Storm is okay, but like Thage, she can't communicate directly because she's being watched. She seems to be perfectly functional and coherent, though. It just means I've gotta bring Order to her chaotic way of communicating.  I'm not the best at cryptic codes, but I'll do my best, everyone. 

With a bit of prodding, I have figured out the meaning of Caesar and Rule of Three. It's very simple- The Caesar Cipher. A very simple and old cipher that just switches letters around. A becomes B, B becomes C, etc. I used this with a factor of 3 on the text I earlier could not identify.

"zkhq zhuh wkhuh wkuhdwv? zkhq zhuh wkhuh olhv? frqqhfw - frqqhfw, frqqhfw, frqqhfw"

becomes

"when were there threats? when were there lies? connect - connect, connect, connect."

Gotta keep connecting things. Connect them dots. The trouble is finding all of the dots.

"SnVsaXVzIGFpZHMgeW91ciBlZmZvcnRz"

becomes

...nothing. That same cipher didn't work on this one. So what does this mean, then? Is this related to the Base part of her comments?

"Base - not as simple, but easy to reach. At the tops of the holly's roots - used all the time."

At first I was thinking of Base-3 encoding, but I couldn't find anything to decode with that, so it may be a dead end. I'm not going to forget about it right away, though. So what does "base" refer to? The tops of my roots, the base of the holly tree? I'm not sure what that means- Are we talking physical or abstract? My only thought would be my computer, but I'm not sure.

"01-17."

The seventeenth of this month, obviously. I'm supposed to "look back" and notice something. I've looked back on Storm's blog, and found the entries "What is happening?" and "Sokar".  I've already decoded everything on Sokar (I think), which leaves "What is happening?" Try as I might, I can't seem to find anything useful on that entry, except for possibly the decrease in C.A.'s posts that Storm could see, and I have no idea where to go with that.

I also checked 01-17 on my own blog. On the 17th, I posted "I finished" and "A big mess". The latter has nothing of interest (probably), but the former has two pictures of my room. This may be where I can find the "base"- the tops of my roots, used all the time. I see my computer, of course, which I'm on all the time. It might make sense, but I don't know what it means.

It just occurred to me that I'm assuming the "base" is an object. It may very well be an oft-used code of cipher, but I just don't know.

For good measure, I checked Sammie's and Darby's blogs, but found nothing. Am I looking in the wrong places? I don't know. I need to network with other blogs better. I've only got 6 followers, heh.

That's all I've got at the moment- If anyone has anything to add, do tell.

 

EDIT: 01-19 - Labels

Stormecho has hinted that there is more to the Japanese labels she's been putting on her entries. Let's take a look at those, shall we?

In "Been a while...": SORAGOTO, meaning "lie". The post mentioned feeling sick and Blogger glitching up. Were either of those lies?

In "2-13": GENJITSU, meaning "actual facts". This post contained the clue "Stickers", as in labels, as well as the word NOTICE. 

In "What is happening?": ITSUWARI, SORAGOTO, both translating to "lie." This post mentioned Blogger glitching and Storm being unable to see some of C.A.'s posts.

In "Sokar": GENJITSU, SHINJITSU, both meaning "truth." This post contained-- Hey, I'm seeing the pattern. The posts that were written coherently and in Storm's normal style are labeled as lies, while the ones written in codes were labelled as truths. Hmm. Is this what you wanted me to see, Storm?

So your posts have been categorized into truths and falsehoods, and they are the opposite of what you might expect. Is this to further obscure yourself from forces that watch you?

Connecting the dots (STORMECHO ANALYSIS)

I didn't get much sleep last night. Stormecho's message is getting to me more than it should. She keeps mentioning a  "holly tree" and I can't help thinking that she's referring to me. It feels silly, self-centered even, but it's too much of a coincidence for me to let it go. I've done some research into holly trees to see if there's any symbolism that may be relevant, but I couldn't find anything that seemed significant to me. I may be overlooking something, but it just makes me more certain that Storm is pointing at me. 

It kinda hurts, not knowing what's happened to her. I kinda connect with her, you know? We're a lot alike.

Alright, let's go over what's happened so far. I'll see if I can put together what Storm's trying to say, since she's told us to "Look back." At the very least, putting things in order may allow me some measure of peace. Let's see...

-

This post is going to be very very long and mainly just for my rambling and making order out of all this chaos.

-

The first strange post was titled "Please" and read as follows:

"It's all about belief, isn't it? 

あなたは信じますか？

あなたは信じますか？

あなたは信じますか？

"I will close the eyes of those who will perish"

私の目は閉じられています。.. 誰が、私が見ることができるように、（彼・それ）らを切り開くでしょうか？ Ashinaga - jin の後に続いてください。 Tenaga - jin の後に続いてください。 同じように同じように同じ。"

The first line is in grey, which I didn't notice until I pasted it here. Possibly indicating... I don't know, shades of grey? As for the line itself, I can only think that it's referring to Slenderman being created by belief, but that doesn't seem right to me. 

The next line is repeated three times, and translates to "Do you believe?" (I'm using Bing translator, by the way.) Straightforward question, perhaps. Do you believe in Slenderman? I feel like I'm missing something by focusing on Slenderman... The idea that he's involved in this feels a little wrong to me.

"I will close the eyes of those who will perish." I have no idea. I'm no good at this, am I?

The next section is the most interesting to me. Using Bing, it translates to: 

"My eyes are closed. Can I see who is in the carve out (he / it), so would?, followed by Ashinaga-jin. After the Tenaga-Jin do the same. Just like just like same."

Obviously Bing mangled the grammar, but it still makes some sense. (As much as possible, anyway.) "My eyes are closed." Taken with the previous statement about those who will perish... eep. "Can I see who is in the carve-out?" The only thing I can think of is the Der Ritter carving, but again, that feels wrong to me. Maybe I'm just squeamish about thinking that Slenderman is involved. It seems so obvious, but that's why it feels wrong. 

"Followed by Ashinaga-jin, after the Tenaga-jin do the same." This part scared me a lot. I googled the terms used, and found this Wikipedia page. Ashinaga-jin and Tenaga-jin are a pair of demons, one with very long arms and one with very long legs. They team up to catch fish, and apparently cause bad weather, such as rain or floods. Spooky. So it seems Storm is being followed by these two demons, or it's just a comparison. It certainly seems familiar to me.

 As for what all of this means... I have no idea. It seems to point towards our dearest Tall Man, but as I've said repeatedly, it seems wrong. I'm probably wrong myself.

Stormecho's next post says that she's had feverish dreams and a headache that lasted a couple of days, rendering everything pretty much a blur. It would make sense, then, that something happened in that length of time. "Please" was posted two days before "Been a while...", so Storm was unwell for the two days after writing her cryptic Japanese post. I wonder what she did in that time. Additionally, Blogger starts to glitch up for her. It seems to be doing that a lot lately, for all of us...

The next strange post is titled "2-13." February 13th, perhaps? Is something supposed to happen then? We'll have to wait and see.

"Tytuł 

Nalepki

01001110 01001111 01010100 01001001 01000011 01000101"

As Sammie very helpfully pointed out, those words are Polish and translate to "Title" and "Stickers" respectively. "Title" seems to be pointing at the 2-13, making me even more sure that something will happen on the thirteenth of February. "Stickers", though... I'm lost. Any ideas?  The binary, as Sammie said, decodes to "NOTICE." Storm has seemed awfully insistent on us noticing something, but I'm not sure what. It's making me very nervous.  This is also the first post to have a strange label on it. This one's label says "GENJITSU", which is Japanese and means "facts."

Storm posts another coherent entry, stating that she can't see many of Citizen Anonymous' posts, nor her own. This post has two labels: "ITSUWARI" and "SORAGOTO", which both translate to "lie." Is this a comment on her own post, or...?

The next post is titled "Sokar" and honestly, this is the first one that seriously unsettled me. 

"Bon travail.

"Let's play a game..." Podłączyć kropek

あなたは理解しますか？

Chaos

Chaos is

Chaos is

Chaos is

<stream of binary, cut for length>"

Sammie tried to figure out "Sokar" and ended up with an Egyptian god. It's either that, or  a Stargate character. A translator says it means "shock" in some language, but I can't figure out which. Ugh. I don't know.

"Bon travail." Good work.

"Let's play a game..." Sammie mentioned a blog called Musical Occurances in relation to this bit. I don't know what to make of that, since I don't follow Musical Occurances. I may have to in the future. "Podłączyć kropek" is Polish, of course, and translates to "connect the dots." I'm trying, Storm.

"あなたは理解しますか？"  translates to "Do you realize?" I don't know, Storm, what am I supposed to realize? I'm really trying here.

And then she goes on about chaos. I couldn't read past that for a long time, it just made me feel sick. To think that something's happened to Storm, and it's all chaos chaos chaotic disorderly wrong wrong wrong

The binary translates to "54 68 65 20 6f 72 69 67 69 6e 20 69 73 20 69 6e 20 6f 6e 65 20 2d 20 63 61 6e 20 69 74 20 63 6f 6d 70 72 65 68 65 6e 64 20 61 6e 79 20 6f 74 68 65 72 3f 0d 0a 0d 0a 41 6e 6f 74 68 65 72 20 61 6e 6f 74 68 65 72 20 61 6e 6f 74 68 65 72 20 61 6e 6f 74 68 65 72 0d 0a 0d 0a 43 68 61 6f 73 20 69 73 20 6e 65 65 64 65 64" which is pretty obviously Hex code. I learned this one from a Vocaloid video, heh. The Hex translates to: 

"The origin is in one - can it comprehend any other?

Another another another another

Chaos is needed"

Again with the talk of chaos, saying it's needed, as if it's beneficial and it's not eventually going to ruin everything and saying the other can't comprehend it- she's speaking of Order and chaos, I think. Can Order comprehend chaos? I think someday I will. I'm trying, Storm!

The labels on "Sokar" are "GENJITSU" and "SHINJITSU", both of which translate to "truth."

And now we reach the most recent post, "A Message." 

"Guess.

Guess.

Proszę cie - zkhq zhuh wkhuh wkuhdwv? zkhq zhuh wkhuh olhv? frqqhfw - frqqhfw, frqqhfw, frqqhfw. 

SnVsaXVzIGFpZHMgeW91ciBlZmZvcnRz

The game drags on.

<stream of binary cut for length>"

Guess, guess. I'm guessing, I'm trying to fit all this together. I am trying to bring Order, Storm. "Prosze cie" is probably Polish, and my translator is giving me "Please list." That's what I'm doing, Storm. Is this what you meant? 

What follows looks like nonsense. I am admittedly a complete amateur at codes, but this resembles no code I'm accustomed to seeing. If anyone has any ideas, do tell.

The game drags on... And on, and on...

The binary translates to: 

"Too much cohesion is dangerous

My hand is forced

CONNECT

What questions are avoided? Why is everything so convenient? The sky is false. 

The holly tree has its roots in the answer. The right question was asked."

At last, something I can try to work out! Okay, let's take this line by line; I have a good feeling about my interpretations here.

"Too much cohesion is dangerous." Similar to Thage, Storm feels like she must communicate in roundabout codes and riddles, otherwise she may, I don't know, attract Slenderman back to her. "My hand is forced." She's doing what she must.

"CONNECT" She's insisting that we connect the dots. That's what I'm doing here.

"What questions are avoided?" We're asking the wrong questions, are we?

"Why is everything so convenient? The sky is false." The obvious conclusions are wrong. This may be reaffirming my uneasiness with pointing and exclaiming, "SLENDERMAN DID IT." It's all too convenient. We need to think deeper.

"The holly tree has its roots in the answer." The holly tree. The Holly tree. Holly. Is she talking to me? Do I have a part to play in this? Assuming that Storm is in fact referring to me, apparently I have my roots in the answer. What does this mean? I don't even know, but I'm not ready to give up yet. I'm gonna figure this out, Storm.

"The right question was asked." I've asked a lot of questions, Storm. Which was the right one?

And then, finally, Storm gives us a response in her comments section of "A Message." I noted the mention of a holly tree and asked if she was referring to me. She posts a comment in Binary, which decodes to:

"Caesar

Rule of Three

Base

The holly tree saw the truth

"What is happening?" when it is already known

Look back"

There we have it. The holly tree saw the truth. Does this mean I'm right, and she is talking about me? I've certainly asked what's happening, but I don't know if I know the answer to that. There's the obvious Slender conclusion, yes, but she's already said the answer isn't that obvious. So what is it?

"Look back." I'm looking back, Storm. What do I see? 

Ebony

Did you know that white chess pieces are traditionally made with wood from holly trees?

A big mess

Something happenedto Stormecho.
Her posts are mangled and chaotic.
She's speaking of  chaos  in codes.
It's so worrying; I'm  getting scared.
She's  acting  like  she's become a 
proxy orsomething,whichis enough
to make me worried for her,but her
mentioning of chaos is making me
uneasy.


I feel awful today; I don't know why.
Something's probably goingaround.
I'm going to  lay  down  for a  while.


I'm  making a  new Marble  Hornets
mask.The old one was crooked and
uneven.
I'll  finish the  mask when I wake up
later. Until then, Holly out.

I finished

I've finished cleaning my room! Oh, man, I feel so much better now. Everything's all neat and orderly, so I can relax. Take a look!

Before!

After!

I feel so much better now! It's like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest; it's great. <3

Alriiiight!

I passed onethousand pageviews today! Thank you,everyone!
It means  a lot to  me that anyone  ever looks  at this silly blog.
I kind of wish I could tell who caught theactual thousandth view.
Did anyof you catch it?I might  draw something for you, maybe!
xD But really, a big thank you to all  of myfriends and followers!


To celebrate, I will clean my room. Yes,shocker! Holly cleaning!
But the stateof my room has actually been bothering  me lately.
It's all cluttered and  chaotic. I'll take pictures to show all of you.

There it is, my wonderful room. I love it a lot, but it's so  messy!
I suspect that's the reason I've been feeling alittle uneasy lately.
Once I finish  sorting everything out, I'll post some pictures of it.


Again,thanks so much for athousand pageviews, you guys~ <3

Blogspot, I am not impressed.

Some of my posts are missing. They've just... disappeared off the internet. I certainly didn't delete them myself, and there's no way anyone else could have, so I am left with the conclusion that Blogspot derped spectacularly. Hilarious.

I'm not especially torn up about it, really. They're just blog posts. In fact, most of the deleted entries are ones where I was venting depression and angst, and I'm okay with those going away. But it does make me a little concerned about the rest of my entries. If this happens again, I will be unamused.

Has anyone else seen a new blog titled Peering In From The Outside? It's a new Slender-related blog, but it's really intriguing in a way most blogs aren't. Basically the author is summarizing current Slender affairs using chess analogies, and it's really cool. I'm trying to sort everything out, but I've always been bad at puzzles. And Thage, the author, seems to be completely unable to give a straight answer. I asked about her connection to Tall Dark and Skinny, and she actually said, "That would be telling."

I got a chuckle out of her referring to SomethingAwful as "The Board that Birthed Zalgo." I mean, Zalgo? That meme is pretty dead, isn't it? Referring to SomethingAwful like that is just... amusing to me.

Anyway, that&apos;s all I have to say. Holly out.

Short comment

It feels like this personal blog has a better build-up to being a Slenderblog than my actual Slenderblog does so far.

This is a little distressing.

Art dump

Oh, gee, I haven't really posted in a while, have I? Whoops. I don't have a whole lot to say, I guess. Semester exams are finally over. I've been staying up obscenely late on Skype with my nakama and sleeping a lot during the day. My Slenderdoll hasn't killed me yet. What else is there to say?

Anyway, since I've been spouting some static about being an ~artist~ but haven't really shown any of my art, I figure it's about time I do that. There's some Slenderman art in here, but most of it is just silly Holly-art. Prepare for mass image-dump.

Yume Nikki fanart~

Alternate costume for my UTAUloid, Sakiko Hanane. Is that kanji correct? <__>

Tegaki E art of my pet OC, Etain. <3

School drawing of Masky. Someone at Unfiction said he looks bishounen here... Oops?

This next thing is barely art, but it is relevant to my usual subject matter, so here you go. God, I drew this at around the time I was getting into the Slendermythos... xD

Heh. Heheh. Wow, that is some old derpy art. I gave Slendy ears; try to ignore that mistake. You know, when I first found out about Slenderman, it was from some fangirls on deviantArt drawing themselves all buddy-buddy BFF with Slendy-kun desu. That may be why it took a long time for me to realize that he's supposed to be scary. Some people find out about him from Marble Hornets. Me, I was introduced to him from fangirls and Know Your Meme. Explains a lot.

That's it for now, thank you for looking, I guess. Here's my dA if anyone's interested: http://dragongirl1136.deviantart.com/

I should be shot for this

Artist's mannequin + tuxedo from a magician doll = Holly's fangirlish delight and indescribable horror.

Yes, yes, I know: You all want one. :3c

Wake up in the morning feeling like sleep-deprivation

Goooood morning, Robotropolis! I am wide-awake and ready to go for my first day back at school, aw yeah~! Except, well, I've probably forgotten everything. I'll need to study hardcore.

And, er, I didn't exactly sleep last night. At all. Had a wacky nightmare of some sort, then I just stayed up from 2:00 to 5:30 playing Pokemon... Apparently the dreams have spread to my little sister, too, because she just informed me that she had a nightmare last night. She said that in her dream, I was panicking and when she asked why, I said, "Slenderman is in the house." So she went out to find our dad, and saw Slenderman standing in the hall looking at her. Ehehe... Blame this on me, guys. I introduced her to Marble Hornets, forgetting she gets anxiety issues over these things... Whoops.

I've managed to mostly cure her fear with Concrete Giraffes and Alex Yelling At Slenderman.

I wish I could find my DS Lite so I could bring it to school and play Pokemon like a cool kid. I don't want to bring my DSi XL, because that thing is comically large and silly-looking. Oh well. I'll just read manga or something like a cooler kid.

Some clarification from someone who's pretty uselessly confused

Another follower! Thank you, Scott; I really appreciate it!

Since I’ve been getting more followers lately (and I have no idea why!), I thought I should take a moment to clarify what this is. Or maybe I don’t have to; I’m not sure. The border between reality and fiction is kinda blurred in my mind. Anyhow, I’ve been following, and occasionally followed back by, people who are being hunted by the entity called the Slenderman. Seeing that I’ve been mistaken for one of those people before, I think I should make it clear that I’m not. I’ve read up on Slendy extensively and I do what I can to help out his victims, but I assure you all that I’m perfectly fine and un-stalked. Knock on wood.

I’m sorry that I keep dancing around the border of in-game and out-of-game. Sometimes even I don’t know what’s real. I kind of aspire to be a Dav Flamerock, if any of you know what I’m talking about. Someone who helps out without actually being a Runner herself. I lurk Unfiction and all that fun stuff, but after becoming immersed in the Mythos as I do, it does get hard to tell what’s real and what isn’t. Especially recently, as I’ve been more asleep than awake and my dreams are… rather odd.

BLAH BLAH BLAH HOLLY’S BEING VAGUE AND WEIRD AGAIN, LET’S GO BACK TO TALKING ABOUT SOMETHING CONCRETE.
Like college. Frikken’ college.
Just got back from dinner at Chili's with my family. It was great- we pretty much stuffed ourselves as a kind of last hurrah before we all go on a diet for the New Year. Awesome. Really looking forward to that. According to my grandma and aunts (who do this often), on WeightWatchers you get much better food and you lose weight because you just eat less of it. Or something like that. Whatever.

While we were out, the subject of college came up. College, college, college. I'm in high school and I haven't really thought much about college. I have a vague desire to major in English literature and write fiction for a living, but I haven’t really done much to work towards that goal… I feel like I should be prepared and I should have a plan, but I really don’t. I’m just kinda floating through high school without a plan. I’ve been told all my life that I’m really smart and mature and all that jazz, but I don’t think I am. That’s not just me being self-deprecating again- I honestly don’t think I’m particularly special or interesting. That’s kind of a not-fun thing to realize, heh.

I’m gonna go play Pokémon and pretend my problems don’t exist. Ciao.