Sunday, January 2, 2011

Some clarification from someone who's pretty uselessly confused

Another follower! Thank you, Scott; I really appreciate it!

Since I’ve been getting more followers lately (and I have no idea why!), I thought I should take a moment to clarify what this is. Or maybe I don’t have to; I’m not sure. The border between reality and fiction is kinda blurred in my mind. Anyhow, I’ve been following, and occasionally followed back by, people who are being hunted by the entity called the Slenderman. Seeing that I’ve been mistaken for one of those people before, I think I should make it clear that I’m not. I’ve read up on Slendy extensively and I do what I can to help out his victims, but I assure you all that I’m perfectly fine and un-stalked. Knock on wood.

I’m sorry that I keep dancing around the border of in-game and out-of-game. Sometimes even I don’t know what’s real. I kind of aspire to be a Dav Flamerock, if any of you know what I’m talking about. Someone who helps out without actually being a Runner herself. I lurk Unfiction and all that fun stuff, but after becoming immersed in the Mythos as I do, it does get hard to tell what’s real and what isn’t. Especially recently, as I’ve been more asleep than awake and my dreams are… rather odd.

Like college. Frikken’ college.
Just got back from dinner at Chili's with my family. It was great- we pretty much stuffed ourselves as a kind of last hurrah before we all go on a diet for the New Year. Awesome. Really looking forward to that. According to my grandma and aunts (who do this often), on WeightWatchers you get much better food and you lose weight because you just eat less of it. Or something like that. Whatever.

While we were out, the subject of college came up. College, college, college. I'm in high school and I haven't really thought much about college. I have a vague desire to major in English literature and write fiction for a living, but I haven’t really done much to work towards that goal… I feel like I should be prepared and I should have a plan, but I really don’t. I’m just kinda floating through high school without a plan. I’ve been told all my life that I’m really smart and mature and all that jazz, but I don’t think I am. That’s not just me being self-deprecating again- I honestly don’t think I’m particularly special or interesting. That’s kind of a not-fun thing to realize, heh.

I’m gonna go play Pokémon and pretend my problems don’t exist. Ciao.


  1. Ah yes, isn't that a fun worry? You'll be fine. You have two more years to work toward your goal~

  2. Honestly, the reason I'm getting all vague and weird about this is because I feel like my normal blog has a better setup towards being a Slenderblog than my actual in-progress Slenderblog does. That's a bit of a problem.

    And of course I can't pull a Damien and turn this blog into a Slenderblog because obviously it's about me and not a fictional character. Gah.

  3. (Oh, haha, posted that comment before I saw yours.)

    Thank you. :) I know I still have plenty of time, but it gets me worked up sometimes. Heh.

  4. You have a slenderblog? Link plz?

  5. Oh man... I dunno, it's still in the introduction phase. I'm probably not gonna get into the actual Slendy stuff for a little while, since I suck at planning.

    Hmm, can I give you the link privately? Some free publicity would be amazingly great, but I'd rather keep myself and my Slenderblog publicly unconnected.

  6. Well, hey, I need some new reading material. I won't connect you both, either. So, free publicity that way? I'll even try to give you some private constructive criticism, if you'd like?

    My email:

  7. Alright! Thanks so much! I'll send you the link, then, and you can contact me by the email address I use. xD <3

  8. Odd dreams, eh? We seem to be in the same niche in regards to blogging, though someone apparently tried to force my blog to become a Slenderblog or something... >> And now has no memory of it.

    Eh, I would like to ask about that post that hadn't been deleted that you apparently put up 2 hours ago... What was that about?

    A mundane explanation would be /great/. It's dark over here and I'm already nervous from going back to school tomorrow.

  9. Yeah, it seems so! It's a bit of an awkward position to be in. Not as awkward as being FORCED into Slenderblogging, though! Yikes! '''8|

    What post? You might be seeing a test post made by Windows Live Writer earlier to detect my blog theme, maybe... I can't see it, but it's probably mundane.

  10. x3 Yeah, random binary threats are /fun/ like that.

    Yeah, I probably saw that. Had a mix of numbers and letters, so I guess I've just been reading too much and got uber-paranoid. XD

  11. Probably a wannabe game-jacker. Ignore them and they'll go away~

    Nah, man, I can see how that would freak you out. I'm a little freaked out by the fact that I can't see it at all. 8| But as I said, it's nothing.

    I'm going to sleep now, so good night everyone. <3